ew ew i smell like picklesss!!! ♥ [13 Dec 2005|08:20pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | MAE * ANYTHING ♥ ] well today was pretty. good. woke up at 6:35 today with dee. got dressed and then a long drive to school with my dad. Seriously he is such an ass. he beeps at everyone and waves hi. so embarassing but he did get us micki d's woohoo. 1st period so math was long. 1st period of the day. it really sucks. i sit there behind some girl that has bad hair. i see white stuff in it. gross. but i feel bad for her because she really doesnt have a lot of friends. i mean if she started to talk to me like she has i wouldnt be mean to her. im so nice. well i have a test on friday. woohooo! yey for test. i suck at math so this is gunna be so much fun. but yeahh anyways. 2nd period well i had chemistry. i was like falling asleep in class. good thing i sit by debbie so that she can keep me awake. they seperated me and rachel from eachother so sad. im all the way in the front and shes all the way in the back. total suckage. but anyways. i was thinking about vermont when i daydreaming. i dont no why. i dunno i was thinking about that. mayb because i was wearing the pjs that i always wore when i was there. but yeah i was like thinking about how much fun i had up there. and the friendship and the big beautiful nights looking up at the stars and thinking is this really happening. i love looking up at the stars. i think its the most beautiful thing to look at besides fireworks. but yeah. my bf if i ever get one gotta love to look at the stars. thats a plus in my book. hehe. but anyways. i dont no why vermont still comes in my head. i sorta wanna pretend it never happened for certain reasons. basically because it was the fall to my heartbreaking. that i was so attactched to someone and deeply in love that it made blind to other opertunitys.Love is blind. and it will take over your mind . so true. then when i saw him again i went through so much. 1. broke my wrist. 2. got a major virus. two very bad things.those things were most deffiently signs telling me not to go. but i wanted to go for two reasons. The rommels. and also because of the boy. and then when i actually see him hes a dick to me. makes fun of me the whole time. and ditches me and keri. my heart broke. i no its because i had my hair brown because in july he was flirting with me again and saying his nickname for me. but i guess he was my frist love. sad as it may seems. and when i talk about him to my friends they get so mad because they no he is such an asshole. he is. im deff not liking him as much as i use to. i guess something came along that got my mind off of him thank you :). but anyways.. 3 period. gym. yeahhh gym is fun with lori and alisha. yeah yeah. mendola asked me about what happened with the whole thing on friday. and hes like thank god your okay though. im like yeah i guess. but yeah anyways. i love them. they are awesome. 4 period.well we were watching a movie in history. its a good movie but i forgot the name. god i have a bad memory. but yeah. i hate watching battle seens. i dont no why. it sorta freaks me out to no that this really happened. :( 5th period Lunchh.. yummie. i had my bufflo chicken sandwich with cheese.. mmm.. soooo good. well yeah lunch was sorta bad. i think there was going to be a fight at my table between ash and tanya. seriously there is so much drama at one table. but becky and megan make it better. i love those two. there so cute. becky and meg are drooling over there lovers. hahha. yeah. but anywayss. im always late to fucking 6th period! she seeems mad everytime i come in. 6th period spanish is okay. Mike and me had a long convo. he comes up to me and tells me brian is awesome. u guys have to hang out. i soo approve of him. i was like whatt? but yeah. brian is pretty cool :). but yeah anyways. i love gay man. hes so funny. i love to make fun of him. his bf is cool. thank god he doesnt no what happened on friday or he would be like. i told u so. i told u so. and i would be like shut up i hate u. he acts like hes my dad. i guess thats a good thing. and i deff didnt tell my gangster jimmy or he would prob flip a shit. i <3 jimmy. hes mah bro. and amazingly cool. but yeahh anyways. 7th advertising design with dee dee is funny. we sit there and do stuff on the computer. funny shit. its an okay class. i love to do stuff on the computers. i could see myself doing this in the late future. i love dee dee soo yeahh :) 8thwell my last period is english. we went to the computer lab to talk about jobs. but yeah i have class with gurlie lindsey c and ant. they so funny. i love them. ant wants to get with lindsey. thats cute. but yeah i was bein an ass and telling her infront of him. hes like im gunna kill u. but anyway. i picked graphic designer and photographer. ash t0ld me that her mom wants me to work with her at sears portrit. i was like awesome. she told ash that im good at taking pictures. i was like yippie. lol. im prob gunna do it. why not do something that i love to do. and i love ash mom shes so nice. but ash was mad because of the whole situation with this girl. eh. i feel bad. so much drama. BELL RINGS! yey. bus ride home was okay. sorta quite because joe wasent on the bus. hes sorta annoying but mad funny. everytime i see him i think about that one time 5 yrs ago. ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww okay im done. but anyways... so than i get home and play pokemon snap. fun game. but anyways. then went with dee to babysit kayla. they were eating pickles. ew i hate pickles. ew ew ew. and kayla was putting pickle juice on me. ew ew ew i smell like pickle still. damnit. but anyways it was fun. we were doing op infront of her and she had no idea what we were saying. we were saying funny shit. i love us. i do op with ash to. so funny. but yahh then i came home and im jus sitting hea wishing i can go outside but im grounded. i hate being alone. i wish someone was home. im bored. and my back hurts. atleast im tired and like i can go to bed early. jus put on my southpark and go to bed. i sorta miss being in coram because people were there and i had someone. i wanna shower but i hate being alone and going in the shower because i feel like someone is gunna come in and like murder me. lol. i dunno but i had dee come over one time and like hangout in my house while i showered. ill jus wait till nicole is home. i dont think she nos im back. im happy to be back in holtsville cuz i felt bad for her being alone. :( she told me she loved me the other day when i couldnt stop crying. shes a good sister even though shes an ass :) well thats all i gotta write about. wow this is the longest entry. mayb because im so bored and i have no one to talk to because no one is online. hopefully people read this thing. im pooring my heart and soul into this. someones gotta be interested in my life. come on now. im not that boring am i. i prob am. sry people. the qoute of the day AND TONIGHT ILL FALL ASLEEP W I T H M Y HEADPHONES ON PLAYING THE S O N G THAT' R E M I N D S M E O F Y O U ♥ Know me

people suck. [12 Dec 2005|07:13pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | God Bless the Broken Road *God Bless the Broken Road ] well im grounded. people are assholes. cant have people over my house. cant trust anybody. well i finally got the computer back thank goodddddd. well anywaysss. friday was the worst night of my life. every friday sucks for me. :( but this made me and dee really close. she was crying cuz i was crying on my bathroom floor. god..i hate people welll im chillian with dee i love deee <333 and yeahhhhh i need a bf for christmasss. all i want for christmas is a really hot guy telling me he likes me. :) and we would dance in the snow and he would kiss me in the snow and ask me out. omg. i would die. so romantic. but i doubt that would ever happen to me. because ive been soo unlucky. i dont think anything good is gunna happen. well im going to go.. Qoute of the day Im threw with romance im threw with love in threw with counting the stars above ♥ Know me

IM CLEAN!!!!! :: dancing around in the snow ::: [05 Dec 2005|10:34pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Plain White T's * Fireworks * ] well today was amazingly cool!! seriously for the first time something was actually going right today. im so happy. today i got picked up early. went to motorvechicale. FINALLY got my permit. yey for me :) i made my mom believe i didnt pass and she liked felt all bad for me. im soo freakin mean. she like gets all nervous for me and stuff. i love her but then i got home i took a 2 hr nap. it was very nice. but the problem is im wide awake now. and i cant sleep. its stinky. well anywayss... then after that i ate some pizza. mmm it was good. and then realized we might have school. i was so upset. my mom felt bad. she said i could take off if i really wanted to. i might. well anyways then i came home. had a long convo with mike. and then went walking around the complex with dee in the snow. seriously the winter makes me think of like boyfriend and girlfriend and jus walking in the snow with them. how romantic. but thats never gunna happen to me. :( but anyways.. me and dee were talking about that stuff. i gave her birthday present. she loved it thank goodddddd!! i was so nervous if she would like it or not. so then we were walking around talking about life and what we wanted to be when we get older. we dont no. but i no i wanna do stuff with computers. i love computers. Well then anyways. as were walking home i bring up something. dont wanna say. girl talk. and then dees like well dee said something to me about how she loves to be clean!?!?!? and then i start skipping and dancing in the snow im cleannn!!! im cleann!! it was so funny i love dee dee. but then anyways shes thinks shes gunna cry to the card i wrote her. i dunno. she might. i wrote some really nice stuff about her. its true. every word i said i meant it. and every letter i write i make someone cry. like for ashleys sweet 16 i wrote her a 2 page letter and she told me she was crying. im like wow im good. im so happy im not the only 17 yr old. i dont feel so old anymore. well i gotta find dee a guy. most deff. they have to be like bestfriends. lol. my guy and her guy. damn right. how hot. we were talking about like how wev wanna like watch elf and stuff with our men. lol. im like how romantic. god. we are pathetic but i love it. im soo korny. but thats jus cool beans. well anywayss..nicole and her bf are in the other room and im stuck in my room. i get so jealous sometimes because i wish i had what she got right now. someone other than her family and friends that cares about her. im happy for her. shes been with a lot of assholes and she actually found the right one. ouchies. my back is itchy. o man o man. well anyways. im gunna go lay down. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRACKADACKA ♥ Know me

a lil better [04 Dec 2005|01:13am] [ mood | drained ] well i jus talked to brian. we talked. were good. thats good. i feel bad we both had bad weekends. i dont think our weekends could get any worse. but everything is turning gray, no color is filling my day i love lindsey she is fucking amazing. her taste in men though is a lil wacked out but thats okay. she got me off my bad mood because shes amazing like that. but im still gray and down. my smile is jus turning into a frown. i cant do anything right. Know me

FRIDAY SUCKED ASS. [03 Dec 2005|06:45pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | Rent * no day but today * ] well friday was the worse day of my life. i thought friday was going to be amazingly cool but i ended up in tears while trying to fall asleep. Well i had a great day at school. got home cleaned the house like crazy because i thought brian was coming over. did my make up all nice. may hair all nice. wore a nice alfit made my house smell really good. actually cleaned my kitchen washed the floors. seriously i did everytthiinng cuz i wanted my house to look nice. SO anyways he was supose to come over at 5:30. never showed up. i was like wow i feel ditched. so then anywayss.. i hung out with my sister than since she didnt go out. we played video games. cool right. so then i went online and there was brian. he told me he really wanted to chill. and stuff and if not tonight then deff tmoro since he doesnt have work. so i was like yey. so than anyways. i did my make up again. jus to fix it up. so than anywayyysss...... than nicoles bf jay came over. hes a cool kid. jay the jet plane all the way. i went in the bedroom while they had there alone time and then i got a phone call. Someone pranking me. i jus love pranks ya no. two guys... at first i thought it was tyler. but then dee asked him and it wasent him. soooo it sounded like there were girls in the backround. this guy was making fun of my voice and shit and i jus hung up the phone. i was like wow. i think it was brian. since he has me blocked now. im sorta sad about that. i really liked talking to that kid. even though i never met him it felt like i new him because i like told him everything and he was cute. so that was sorta put me in a down mood. so than anyways.. then me jay and colie all started to play video games, got my mind off of everything, so then. i get another phone call. another prank. well i dont wanna get into the prank but basically they were threating to kick my ass because i "suposivly" did shit with her bf john. i was like wow. they kept calling for like ever. and i was hysterical crying. i was shaking like a lil bitch. colie was getting all mad. they said they were coming to my house. so jay and nicole walked around outside while i sat inside crying. seriously. my face was black. since all the make up. i like mascara. lol. but yeah anyways, nothing was going right. i was supose to have a great night with a great kid but instead i end up crying because of some stupid prank. so then i find out who it was. it was my friend jess. i was flipping out so bad. so we started fighting on the computer. i dont no what we are. but then the next day my mom calls me up screaming at me because she found out about jess prank from my sister. so she called sue. and then it went crazy from there. i dont even wanna get into it. but it was pretty bad. i feel bad for jess even though what she did to me was fucked up. but im a nice person. i cant be mean to anybody. sooo yeah. now im sitting here all by myself jus trying to think of something to do. im sorta down. i feel so stupid. i cant believe everything bad is happening. i jus wish i can find the right guy. every guy i talk to ends up in disaster. i really dont understand whats wrong with me. im sry im not the perfect gurl everyone wants. i jus cant believe this shittt!!!! god. its ethier because of the distance, he cheats on me, he doesnt like me cause of my hair color, goes for a bisexual instead, or they block me for no apparent reason. so sad. i cant do anything right. im a loser and thats probably why no one likes me. god. i hate this shit. well i really dont what to say. i dont think i can get into a better mood. i wish i could. i hate being down. it gives me a mindgrain. well thats really all i gotta say. i hope everyone had a better weekened. qoute of the day SHE WHISPERS INTO THE MIRROR AS SHE WIPES THE RUNNING EYE- LINER FROM HER E Y E S "IM SO STUPID" Michelle ♥ Know me

Longg day ♥ [22 Nov 2005|09:51pm] [ music | Rent - Another Day ] well today was good. long let me tell you got home. went to the doctors. came home. ate micki ds, then hung out with scott and ash. then hung out with the kid shawn and alex. they were nice. alex likes me. they all wanna hang out 2moro. im gunna be away though but im hanging out with mr.brian. yey. gunna play video games. kick his ass.yeahhh. im gunna even though he doesnt think hes gunna beat me. but im chilling with him when i get home at like 10:30. yey for me. gunna be fun. hell ya but then i talked to matt. i miss him. i havent seen him so long. things got pretty weird though when he told me he liked me ever since i started colorguard. seriously he jus threw it at me. he told me like 3 secs before it how much he missed his ex. sooo. that didnt turn out to well. but yes. GAY MAN DID A VERY BAD THING YESTERDAY!! DIRTBAG! well im off im tired. ill write when i come back ;) Know me

My long ass day [21 Nov 2005|10:25pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Incubus - I miss you ] well today was okay. i woke up at 6:30 am. it sucked. the day went by fast. Me Rachel debbie michelle and gay man are all gunna go to sports plus on sunday. debbie thinks shes gunna get me in lazor tag.. pleaseeeee im sooo good. ill probably fall on my face. lol. well yeahh i love them they are amazingly cool. Well gay man wasent in schoool today. i was sooo upset!! :( i missed my gay man. i had no one to make fun of!! he better be in school. Well anywaysss lunch was fun. megan and becky are so funny. her talking about her gotti guy and how she cant curse. hahaha. she sounds so stupid. but i love her. Megan aka mo is amazingly awesome. she is like one of the coolest 9th graders i no. its funny how i thought i would hate my lunch period but now i absolutly love it. RuBz2Nt419: cuz i miss u so much and iwant u to be the first to meet him aw. i love him him. lol. well yeahhh anywayysss my mom picked me up early. woot woot . holler but yeahhhh anywayysss. so we were gunna finally get my permit but i didnt have my social security number. how gay is that. i had the number but not the card. what assholes. lol. but then i got my nails done. no they arent blue anymore. i no all u people hated them. so than i hung out in coram for a lil while and played with my ferrits. i love them. and then went back to holtsville yeahhh i versed dee in mario party. i kicked her ass bitchhh!! o yeahh go me go me. and she was bragging the whole time when she won 2 days ago. seriously i was so mad.. and they called me up tryin to get me jealous. but i was with there 2 lovers. yooo holla. well i love dee dee. shes awesome. well ash dog is sick. i feel bad. GURRRLIIIEE feel better. but yes im talking to cool brian right now. he won his game totally cool woot woot for brian!! but yeahhh now im home. my ears hurt. and im tired. and i dont feel like goin to bed. but yes im off i dont no what else to write. wait i do. im chilling with dee and larry tomoro!! i miss that pirate. lmao. we should really have a tv show together. well heres my qoute of the day. You do something to me.. that i cant explain.. so would i be out of line... if i said. I MISS YOU <3 ohh i love that song <3 michelle aka BURRGGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA Know me

bored [21 Nov 2005|12:06am] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Moulin Rouge - Your song ] well its 12:06 in the morning. i had a pretty good day today. nothing really big is going on in my life. its really boring. like nothing is really exciting. i love my friends though and my family. things arent going to well for my uncle. i really hope hes okay. hes such a great guy to me hes like my second dad. well my weekend was fun. i hung out at jo jos house. we had a great time. i love my jo jo. nicole is amazingly cool too. well yeahhh. i have school 2moro and im going for my permit. my parents are finally gunna take me. im amazed. they never wanted to but now they do.woot woot. im talking to this kid named brian. hes really cool i was talking to him for like 2hrs. fun stuff right hes cute lol :) but yeahh dee (my bestfriend) might go away with me to penn for thanksgiving. im sorta happy about it because nicoles gunna have her bf. so shes really not gunna wanna hang out with me. ill feel like the 3rd wheel. i hate being the third wheel. im always the third wheel when my friends are with there boyfriends. Mostly ash invites me over when ever she had her bf and stuff. after leaving her house i would always get sorta depressed because i would want a relationship with someone but at that point in time i was still hung over about a boy that broke my heart in two. i still care about him. sometimes i wish i never met him at all but then again im sorta glad i did in the end. I dunno i would have never been soo hung up on a guy. maybe i would have had a lot more bfs but still. he was my first serious crush i liked him for 3 yrs and im glad that me and him are still friends. Well im gunna go to bed. im so tired. heres my qoute of the day Let's get these teen hearts beating F a s t e r .. F a s t e r So testosterone boys and harlequin girls Will you dance to this beat a n d h o l d a l o v e r c l o s e<3 yeahhh panic at the disco is amazingly cool <3 Know me

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